So i had a dream the other night and it was super eye opening.
And its going to be long so either stick with me or just dont read it.

Okay so theres me and like tons of other people. I know like 3 of them but nobody else. But i can see just the fire for God in their hearts.
So anyway this guy comes over to all of us (Theres like 20 or 30) and he gathers us around for a meeting. And he has us sit on this wall and hold this big chain.
And then he gives each of us a lock. And these locks are beautiful and different from everyone elses. They are like hand painted and decorated.
Then he tells us "Imagine that these locks are your relationship with God, and the Chain is God."
Then he tells us "Now if you feel like you have a pretty good relationship with God then close your lock and lock it on the chain."
"Click, click, click." Everyone closes theirs.
So then he goes "Good, good. Now pull on that lock and see if it comes off."
Everyone pulls and nobodys comes off.
"Good, good" He says.
Then he hands each of us a key. And tells us to imagine that the key is the thing or multiple things that is keeping us from growing, or is destroying our relationship with Him.
Everyone is silent and hold their keys. Then he says
"Now put the key inside the lock and turn it."
Everyone does. And some fall to the ground some hang on the chain barely and some dont even unlock.
The man walks over to a boy whos lock didnt even unlock and says " So tell me something son, first: what was the thing your key represented? And second: why didnt your lock unlock or fall?"
And the boy goes "Well, i imagined my key as the cutting problem i used to have. And i think it didnt fall because i over came that problem with Gods help and prayed to him to help me get over it and he did. I havent cut in a long time. So maybe the key didnt unlock my lock because its not affecting my relationship with God anymore. But if this thing was month earlier im guessing my lock would be the first on the ground."
The man thanks him Then the he goes to a girl who is sobbing. Her lock came off and fell to the ground.
He says to her "So tell me something daughter, first: what was the thing your key represented? And second: why did your lock fall?"
And the girl says behind her tears "I imagined my key to be my drug problem. And im guessing it fell because its taking over my life and its keeping me away from God and church on wed and praying to Him."
The man thanks her and walks over to another girl, her lock is hanging on the chain still, its about to fall.
And says "So tell me something daughter, first: what was the thing your key represented? And second: why did your lock almost fall?"
And the girl looks stunned at her lock and says "I imagined my key was the friends i have. And i think the reason it didnt fall all the way is because im pretty strong with God but every once and a while when i decide to talk to those friends im not obeying God with my thoughts and words." He thanks her and walks in front of us.

And Says "See children, all of you have different things that are ruining your relationship with God. Either fast or slow and steady. These locks are very VERY important. Why? Because they are your relationship with the all amazing Jesus. How could that not be important? So children. Some of your locks fell, some almost fell and some didnt even move. All of you need to get to a place in your life that no matter what key it is, or how many there are, or how many times different keys are tried in your locks. Let NOTHING i repeat, Nothing unlock your lock from the Chain of God. You need get stronger and stronger in your relationship that no key in the world can take you away from God or make you weak. Understand? Good. Now go live for the Lord and bring others to Christ. I dont know all of you but your all Gods children and i love all of you."
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This was just super eye opening and just a wake up call.
So thanks for reading and sticking with all of that. I know it was long and im sorry.
Mmm yep. Love you guys.

Peace.Love.

Millions.

So yeah this has been on my mind many times this month.
Some of you know about this, and I thank you for listening to me go on and on if you do know about it.
Anyways, I have just been getting more and more details to it. So im writing it down this time.
P.s. Its much cooler if I tell it to you.
Stick with me here.
Okay.... So imagine this.....
So theres this field and the view from it is from a plane, like your up in the sky.
Alright?
Okay, so there is beautiful grass and hills and all around this huge field are little hut house type things. Then you look straight ahead and there is this HUGE cross. Like super big, so huge you can even fathom how big this is. And then you see people and these people are just so pure and they are glowing with Gods knowledge and love and just awesomeness. You can just see the Jesus in them and working through them.
Okay so these people are just leading in these huge groups of people. Thousands, millions.
These people are all soon gathered and in front of the cross. And these people are wearing black shirts. Then they all look up at the cross. And then

Boom.
Flash of light.
Then they all drop.
To their knees in prayer and worship.
The black shirts are gone and they are white and pure.
And the people that led them in are just praying over all of them and worshiping God.

Millions upon millions of people just got saved.

Peace.Love.

Worries.

Just something i was kinda thought of.
While I was listening to TJ McCloud. Mmhmm. I love him.

--I stand at the end of that hallway and i get so nervous.I look at how empty and blank it is.
I get scared. Its dim. No light of form of life visible at all in it. It seems never ending.
But i see a double door at the end.
With a little bit of light coming through it. I want to run to it. Where i know theres life and light.
But im scared of what will happen whileim going down the hall. Who knows whats goingto happen or show up.

Thats all i got so far.
Peace.Love.

Letters.

I want to write down thoughts, images, bad days, stories, pictures, verses, quotes, anything.
Then seal it up in an envelope and stand on top of the biggest hill i can find and let them free.

Just to set my thoughts free. So someone will know them and what im feeling, but not who i am.
I need to set these images, ideas, feelings, thoughts, stories, stress, and anything else free in the wind.

Free off my mind, free to roam, so free i know its safe because i know its not building up inside when i have nobody to talk to.

Peace.Love.

The white room.

Okay so lately i have been feeling empty.
And like i just wanted to lay in bed forever. I didnt have any effort to do anything. Finish homework, study for my huge test. Anything.
So then i started talking to Becky and i started getting pictures again.
Soooo.....Heres another story about what i saw.


--Okay so im in this room. Its all white. And im sitting in the middle. with a bright holy light shining on me. This room is all brought and white and is never ending. And i see in this room a bookcase, and a broken guitar. I have no idea why though.
But im on the floor reading my bible, i get up and walk around the room.
I turn around and i see pictures on the walls. Some that i have taken and some are just pictures other people have taken that i like. And they are just floating there.
Then i notice that everywhere i turn there are like movies kinda on the wall.
But the thing is its not a wall. Its like a movie screen but i can see the other side. If that makes any since, Congrats. You understand me.
Okay so on the first video thing i see this girl who is dancing in this beautiful field. And she is just running around and spinning in circles. And shes young, around 13. And then i realized its me because i was 13 when i accepted God. So then i turn and see another one.
And if this room had walls it would be covered with all these different videos. But it doesn't so they are all just floating there. So anyways, this other one is a bunch of teenagers at a drive in watching a movie.
Then i turn again and see this one and this boy who has brown hair and is around 17 is walking on this winding road. And i see as the scenery is mountains. Beautiful mountains. And then i notice that its raining, but he doesn't care. He just keeps walking.
And i know this boy, hes beautiful and i know him. I know him and i always have.But i cant see his face or see what he looks like.
Yeah so i got out of that that its basically my life. Possibly maybe. We will see if God decides to say anymore.

Annd yeah....thats basically it.

Peace.Love.

Silence.

I walk through those doors and instantly feel the need to get out.
I dont know what it is....but i hate it here, not that i hate everyone here, thats not it at all, I just hate the feeling.
So much tension and negative presence. I hate the yelling that happens.
I could spend the whole day outside. Laying in the grass and letting spring just be there. With the coulds and the breeze. And the sun and the birds, and the people walking their dogs. I love it. I could live outside.
Mostly everyday I walk through those doors and just instantly walk upstairs. I cant handle being downstairs for a while. I dont know whats wrong. Its not that i dont enjoy being with them, I do most of the time. I like watching game shows with Tristan and my mom. I like sitting with Kalee watching lost. I like playing board games with my dad and Dayton. I like playing WII with my siblings. I like watching my dad cook.
But then i get out and i take a walk or i go with friends to lunch. Or on a drive with my favorite Becky. Or to the park. Or just to swing by myself.
And i feel perfect and so much better. I feel just overwhelmed with assurance and safety. I feel like thats where i need to be. I want time to stop during lunch at school because i love my table and our conversations. Whenever im having a wonderful talk with someone i want time to freeze. I want that conversartion to last as long as possible. I love being with my friends.
I always feel like i need to get away and be with someone i trust. Im not depressed. I just like to be either by myself or with the people that i know love me for who i am and can help me with anything.
Or even just to talk to them works most of the time. I just need to..........
Run.
Swing.
Take a walk.
Sit outside.
Anything.

Peace.Love.

What i saw from God.

Oh my goodness.
So basically i know that i have a gift from God. I have the gift to see things in dreams after a pray for help when i problem comes up He helps me with the answer. And i want to write this down so i never forget!

So i was on the Phone with Matt and he was telling me about this plan with Becky that he has to go around with Becky and Will to talk ot people about God to other churches and stuff. So he is tlaking about this and right in the middle of him talking I go "I want to go" and he said "you want to go really?" and i say "yeah.....I have to go" So then he says "Do you want to just go to go or is there something say you have to" by this time i break down crying and i sit there and say "I have to go. God says i have to go. I need to go with you guys....soon. Now"

So then we get into this deep conversation about all this stuff. And we are talking and im basically breaking down just saying all these things built up that i didnt even know that were there and all thse feelings from God and just all this stuff. So then i start stuttering saying "i need......i need." And he goes "Angie, what do you need what is God telling you?" So i say "i need.....i need to run." Matt says "Why do you need to run? No dont run dont go anywhere" And i say, "Yeah i need to run, far away and just keep going and i dont know where exactly, just run" Then he keeps saying "Why, and no you cant why is God saying to run?" So i start telling this story......

Okay so im on this road and im on this line going directly down the middle of the road and im running. And on one side its all light and happy and wonderful and beautiful and everyone i love and trust and have had an effect on my life are over there running too while im still in the middle. Shelby Becky Angel Matt Bethany Will and Kali are all over there. But on the other side is all dark and black and i cant see anything over there. So im running and running on this line, And then Becky and Shelby get to me and they pull me over to the light side with them and its great. And then i start to fall with God a little so im back in the middle. And then most of me is in the dark area but some is still in the light because i have a little bit of faith left in me. So then everyone works together and pulls me back . Then everything is okay and we are all still running (By the way, this whole time we are running) So then i see people in a line in front of me. They are in balck coats and are standing in these black circles. Blocking my path. So then i get to them and the world stops and everything freezes. By this time i relize its my family. And then something happens and i get in a fight with my mom and then all of them circle around me and take me over to where its dark. Im lost and i cant see anything. Then i drop to my knees and everything is still. And im praying to God to help me get out of this. But nothing works. So then i see Shelby and Becky and they grab me and pull me back again. So we are all running and everything is good. Then i see more people in front of me. And sometimes they are all there together and sometimes they are alone, just one person. And they are in a purple circles, no black coats. And there is a light shining down on them. And i notice that they are the people i need to pray for. So Kali and Will and Emma were up there at one point. So i get to them and again the world go still and everything freezes. and they dont move and they are staring blankly ahead. And i grab their hands and i start praying for them and their circle either goes away or keeps getting smaller and smaller. And eventually when their circle is gone they are running in the lighted area with us.
but Emma, she started going in the middle and Matt was trying to get her and we all were but she just kept slipping further and further into the black side. Then we lost her and we couldent find her.

So basically i relieze that im running down that road because its the road i have to go down to live for God and i have to keep running to get to the place he wants me to. And i have to overcome all those things blocking my path because i cant let anything get in the way of what God wants me to do.
So yeah thats it.......Sorry its long.

Peace.Love.